Faith. (Giving Thanks)

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Faith.

When doors are opened, opportunities waiting and adrenaline flying because you know you’re on the right path and the dots are connecting; it’s very easy to keep the faith. It’s harder when the fields lie fallow and the bank account dips lower and the temp jobs are hard to find. But God is not a means to an end. He isn’t someone you ask things from so that your life is what you want it to be and when you want it to be.

Two years ago today, I wrote my first post for this blog. A year following that post I was sitting in a hotel room in Bangkok, Thailand having finished up some of the most powerful months of my life, wondering what life in America held for me. And trust me, if you had given me a list of 10 cities to write down where I could see myself living, Oklahoma City would not have been one of them. But here I am and it is where I am supposed to be.

There have been moments when my faith has faltered or I have had the frozen borderline panic; “What is the big picture exactly and how the heck am I going to get there?!”. But then I breathe and remind myself faith is the evidence of things unseen. And the only way I ended up in OKC is because this is where I should be and it will all be revealed in its own time.

In those moments of panic I have had reinforcement show up in the most unexpected ways. I had just spent a hard honest hour with my finances one day when I received a note from a new friend asking me if I had time to get together before I left for Thailand. Without getting into the details, my friend made a very touching and encouraging “investment” in me and in the work I was doing. The other day I was feeling a bit down and wondering if I was writing into a vacuum when I received an email from a popular local paper requesting an Op-Ed on trafficking in Oklahoma. Then the other day I noticed I had a very high number of hits on my blog and realized an anti trafficking org. in the U.K had retweeted one of my posts.

Encouragement is there. It can just be there in the small things which are easy to overlook if you expect living life on faith is easy.

And following my heart, doing what I believe I am called to do, is a blessing no matter what the circumstances.

So on this Thanksgiving week – I am thankful for so many people and events. For all the support, love and belief in me, for new friends in OKC who have welcomed me with open arms, for old friends on the East Coast who call and Skype with me, for an apartment whose rent is under $1,000 (for the first time in years) and for constantly receiving affirmation when I need to be kept afloat the most.

Thank you.

I may not have gone where I intended to go,

but I think I have ended up where I intended to be.

Douglas Adams.

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